1. |
do not resurrect
03:31
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DO NOT RESURRECT
we do not compute
nothing to calculate
we've gotta disconnect
but do not resurrect
want you to burn in hell
this is our farewell
a reprise with no reply
just another way to say goodbye
this is my refusal to react
a desire to subtract
guess another burning bridge will
light the only way you know
feel like i'm talking to a wall with you
the way the words do not go thru
your ignorance has got the best of you
the best of you is gone
we're different codes
nobody knows
we look so close but
we're different codes
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2. |
dasha
04:52
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DASHA
how could you be so unkind
why would you play with my head
well now you've made them all believe that i was out of my mind
made sure you were still breathing
i gave it everything i had
you demonstrate the textbook definition of deceiving
sometimes i do still wonder
let myself go conflicted
occasionally, i've got to remind myself that you're wicked
if i'd have known what you were about
that you'd dun walk on me
i would've copped you red bottom louboutins or louie v
you plead for another red bottom
temper tantrum til you got your way
just to disorient and try to top it from the bottom
why can't you just be clear
i would have loved to wear
your scars of affirmation on my skin instead of my heart
i'm flexible as can be
read: there's no breaking me
just would have appreciated a little honesty
sacrificed my will to show you
my allegiance was all yours
those words have yet to make their way to your vocabulary
gotta make it to the edge of the world tonight
got a feeling there's no end in sight
if you're glowing, they gon put up a fight
well i don't even fucking care to be right
kinda complicated but i survived
you were close, but couldn't eat me alive
tried to stab me but i swallowed the knife
all your hatred i can metabolize
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3. |
art of allegiance
04:40
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ART OF ALLEGIANCE
there's no more you
there's no more me
we're disconnected as can be
my kindness you mistook
for weakness, baby
a false alarm at best, i guess
you weren't the one i need
i'm unconditionally
faithful to myself
gave you the code to break you in
but it's outmoded from within
made sure to always keep
a healthy distance
no time for turbulence
got zero space for arrogance
fuck with me once you've mastered
the art of allegiance
took back my voice
i've made my choice
and found my confidence, you see
was open hearted til
you betrayed me
no sense in arguing
that cyclical extravagance
reserved for adolescents
who can't make up their mind
no shame with no regrets
each failure is a lesson learned
there's better ways to place our bets
in which we won't get burned
a perfect mystery
to anyone who's never breathed
you're so convincing
i think i'll fool myself
do
you
ever
notice
how
it
always
seems
so
impossible
to
keep
the
dots
connected
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4. |
of your absence
05:00
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OF YOUR ABSENCE
couldn't chew your way thru my flesh
wouldn't let me catch my breath
needed everything right here, right now
had to have your way or else
you found a way to infect everything
everyone and every hope
i'm sifting thru the memories
of obsolete and toxic dreams
couldn't drown me in the misery
couldn't dare just let me sleep
always another exposition
demonstration of your disregard for anyone
if i could sølve yøu i'd have done so long ago
it'd be a gift to bask in your presence
prefer to disengage than let you boil my blood
and bear the burden of your absence
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5. |
spirit
06:14
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SPIRIT
ode to the damage that you caused me
all the things you cost me
falling since you lost me
strategically exhausting
emptiness adorns you
like no one tried to warn you
silencing my voice
be grateful learn to empathize
clever and tired maneuvers
all failed to break my spirit
how dare you think i'd let you
tear my heart out just to wear it
distortion, convolute my truth
to amplify your fortune
break it, spin it, mold it
to suit your false security
interesting story
phasing out you bore me
decimate reality
often contemplate these thoughts
we feel the shame, exhausted
overwhelmed and bored
please execute them
clever and tired maneuvers
all failed to break my spirit
how dare you think i'd let you
tear my heart out just to wear it
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6. |
gaslit passage
01:34
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GASLIT PASSAGE
tell them everything you felt
was your imagination
your experience has
zero validation
your obedience is
my first expectation
forfeit loyalty to reason
feed me information
i'm burning down your inhibition
drown your intuition
call it love, call it greed
i'm the only one you need
now you're wondering
how did we get here
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7. |
catalyst
05:00
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CATALYST
come down, optimize your ignorance and
fall out, out of love and out of luck
is anyone listening, you're breaking up
you can't hear, further down the rabbit hole
acceptance building up it fills you up
a thread of momentary reassurance
place held, place your bets on your addiction
greener grass will catch her fall a new delusion
could you also blame it on me
[still the doubt lingers]
may i be your catalyst
[deafened by yøur devils]
burning bridge illuminate
[throw this out the window]
path of your atrocities
[sabotage our love]
play dead, formulate your narrative
in your head, mindlessly and selfishly
a waste of breath, any effort anyone
could ever make, hopelessly romanticize
a strand of your real self or sanity
impressive, look at what you did to me
betrayal, play it off so casually
protecting synthesized identities
still the doubt lingers
deafened by yøur devils
throw this out the window
sabotage our love
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8. |
ivette
06:04
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IVETTE
it'd be such a shame to see you
let these thoughts get to you ivette
with no regret you bet
i can safely say i've been thru it
in every aspect of the word
every stretch of the imagination
my life's been no paid vacation
series of broken concentration
i feel your curse
and taste your wounds
i'll break the caustic spells of hell
to breathe the strength back into you
you don't have to feel alone this time
not obliged to feel guilty by design
no need to put the blame, the burden,
point the finger at yourself
i'd never hope to see you suffocate
the fire in your heart
i'd never wish to know you're suffering
or lost touch with your art
i feel your curse
and taste your wounds
i'll break the caustic spells of hell
to breathe the strength back into you
baby hold me
i could never
breathe without you
feeling lost
i've found a way to
elevate you
want you to be
everything you
said you could be
won't you
feel these
songs i
write to love you
darling hold me now
baby make me yours
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9. |
of all feeling
09:08
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OF ALL FEELING
nothing left to be broken here
the epitome of a hopeless case
we've descended to nowhere now
nowhere now, have we faded out
every effort to heal a waste
effortlessly our love defaced
we've expired our last desires
our last desires, have we faded out
never did never seem so appealing
ever so quickly our hearts have been replaced
now we've been drained of all feeling
of all feeling, have we faded out
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10. |
disconnect the dots
04:13
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DISCONNECT THE DOTS
i've lost my appetite for love
i tried to lift you from above
disinfect these bitter wounds
before we turn to dust
swimming thru the memorie
of all the broken trust
all these hollow thoughts
all your broken hearts
when all we need is one of us
to disconnect the dots
my solace, my fallen angel
you soulless and fallen angel
i've gifted all myself to pain
you drowned my only hope in vain
suffocate the last of these
exhausted energies
blind me to the empty dreams
and worthless imageries
sing to me no more
walk right thru this door
dismantle it, rip us apart now
disconnect the dots
you soulless and fallen angel
my solace, my fallen angel
it's gonna come back around
it's gonna break you down
and make you frown
you won a couple rounds
lost the war; rest assured
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11. |
and your ghost
05:33
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AND YOUR GHOST
if there's one thing that matters
that makes everything worth anything
deep below the tides that break up the night
beyond perceivable reason
unattainable; out of sight
distorting our memorie
out of spite
a thread of intuition
the channels we ignite
that lead us to a night that never ends
we can disconnect the dots
but we're bound to form again
a segue, a hope, a path to make ammends
driving down an empty road
stretched against the coast
made of candy houses, an ocean
and your ghost
a race to realization
a catalyst by equation
a formula to segregate us
all these idols who lied to you
i'll be the reason they die
whatever brings you closer to my light
i'm not looking to startle you
i'm not looking to fight
but i never found
the words to make it right
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